Ladies, let my story be a lesson to all of us to listen to what our bodies are telling us and be very aware when things are not right.
My Primary Care Physician started me on T*pimax as a preventative for my migraines. He started me at 100 mg. per day then bumped it up to 200 mg.s per day back at the end of June. Since then I have become increasingly depressed, anxious, there has been a loss of interest in most everything.
The garden that I planted from seeds that I raised in my greenhouse, sat out in sun and dried up from lack of attention. The only thing I bothered picking were the beans. The tomatoes lie rotting on the vines, the potatoes are still under the soil, beets, cucumbers and squash, all gone.
New craft magazines, lying unopened in my craft room. Usually I can't even wait to get home to look at them and will read them in the car.
Nights spent crying and crying, for reasons I can't tell anyone because I don't know myself...
Going to work every day, double checking every thing I do because I know that I can't focus as well as before.
Trying to live normally..Trying to act happy... Trying to do things I usually do.....but knowing that under the surface something is very wrong....
Still the migraines are happening almost everyday..
The Neurologist, says that's a very high dose of Top*m*x your PCP started you on, he is concerned.. let's stay on it just a little while and see what happens and start some physical therapy on your shoulder that is bothering you that could be adding to your migraine problem. He didn't like the idea that my PCP started me on such a high dose. Two more weeks of these horrible feelings, still more migraines.. until this weekend...
I couldn't take it anymore..all I could think about was that I didn't want to live anymore.. I couldn't stand the pain, the Imitrex for the migraines quit working completely, they wouldn't go away at all. My husband called the Neurologists office and they gave him an emergency number. The Neurologist called and said to give me an injection of the high powered migraine medication they had given me and to start pulling me off the Top*max immediately! I was to only take 1/2 the prescribed amount that night.
The Doctor called yesterday and said he wanted me weaned off the T*p*max completely by Wednesday. Apparently one of the rare side effects of this drug is depression and thoughts of suicide. I was one of the few people who had almost all of the side effects of this medication. I lost 11 pounds in a little over a month My vision changed. I became anxious and depressed. There was a constant ringing in my ears. And still I had migraines almost daily. I kept thinking, "maybe it takes awhile for the medicine to start working, it will start working any day now". Or I would say to myself "This is just crazy, you need to snap out of this, it's all in your head".
Today I am down to only 1/3 of the medication and tomorrow will be the last day. Thank God! I feel better already! The ringing in the ears is gone. I don't feel like all hope is gone.
Yes, we are back to square one with the migraines. I have an appointment with the Neurologist today to start with plan B and I have an appointment with my OB-Gyn, Friday to start testing hormore levels and having my thyroid tested, I am 51 years old, and this could be part of the problem. We haven't found the culprit yet, but we will.
My point is...I knew something was wrong...I thought it was just me...I should have called and told the Dr. that something wasn't right.
It's time to take charge to my health and be more assertive. I've got to get well soon! I'm waayyyy behind on Halloween crafts!
* use of * and misspelling of the drug is because I don't want anyone searching for information on this drug to find my blog. Sorry if that confuses anyone.